My Soul
In my heart I'm a very giving person I cannot stand
not having something to give.
I'm in the deepest depression b/c the one I love
cannot tell me she loves me b/c she is not ready for relationship.
But that is ok I love her anyway. On of the main reasons for me making
this web site is b/c our one year anniversary is coming up and I have to
do something for her. I don't have enough money to really buy something
for her so I wanted her to feel special somehow and I hope this works.
There are many reasons for the things I do and most of them root from Love.
Don't let anyone tell you that love is a waste of time love can make ppl
or break ppl and if you think from your heart then all will be well.
And if you cannot be yourself to the person you love maybe you don't really
love them. I love my g/f but I have made a promise not to tell her
unless she tells me first. I cheat b/c when she is asleep beside
me or I dream about her I tell her. She hasn't told me that she loves
me in about a month and a half it seems like much longer. I wish
she could realize my feelings for her and understand that I want no one
but her. Her lack of revealing emotion has wanted me to break up
with her many times and I just cannot b/c if I lost her I would never be
the same. I like what I have become to please her and I don't want
to go back to my old ways and without her on my a$$ about some of the things
I do I would probably go back to them.
And we broke up this weekend for the reasons said
above.